Welcome to My Mind!

I was born to being a man, I really don't think I will being who am I here. I proudly to be a Deaf person actually, but as gender, I don't think what that is. Overwhelming that I felt to being a Deaf person, but either to being a man, is really tough to identity who am I. I identify just being human. I think that really makes sense to me. I personally would be comfortable to being human without gender. I know the Lord creates men and women or other genders that I found and seen, but I know He will knows who really am I and what am like being I. That is tough, but it is in still progressing. I know that is destiny, but I don't feel what these kind of. I don't proud to be a man when I see many men's are sexual crimes suspect and I have found that very little research identifies men as victims of sexual crimes. That's happening in my country, Indonesia. I always find out those women's as victim of sexual crimes and effects an important social movement for the f...

That is a risk and consequence that I live in a majority-religion and ethnic country. If you come to Indonesia, you will see how the privilege works and how the system works. But, if you feel confused, you need to read about babi ngepet first (link: https://coconuts.co/jakarta/news/depok-villagers-behead-babi-ngepet-shapeshifting-boar-demon-accused-of-stealing-money/). "The neighbors are unemployed but has many money," Wati, a woman neighbor said. It is the point could you know.  I never like to talk about the people business, because it's not my business. And even, include my parents. I always let them to work and want to do everything they wanted. Because I don't like it. That's not all things yet, but it also includes religion thing, like "have you ever praying?", "why didn't you praying?", "when do you go to the church?", etc. It seems like human taking over and feeling like a God, although they're just human but they neve...

I came up in a new boarding house (kost in Indonesian) on January 8th, 2021, I got sick headache and took a rest for two days. After that, I was going to spa and message clinic. I liked this place. I felt fully health after that.  After 10 months spending in my prison (my home, I mean, but I felt it was like a prison due to Covid-19). I felt back to re-fix my body again. I though it was should to be adapted before I will be head to be an usual again. During a week ago, I went to some favorite places in Jogja and met many friends has not seen for a long time. I also back to taught in a new classroom with offline system and the strict of protocols. And now, I'm in Marko Milk. That is one of my favorite cafes ever I've visited in my life. And even, I always visit to here so more often. But, yeah, I love my parent at fully. I still remember that how did we make a decision to back home to Jogja. I exactly made a decision myself, actually. But my mom seems that didn't ready for m...

 "When someone always told me that Bahasa is meaning Malay but why aren't with Indonesia? And vice versa." I believe that many people always saying like that because they think like that but as an Indonesia, it's all disagree and just misunderstanding. Once, you cannot say like that. Why that is? Indonesia and Malaysia are different countries, you know? That's simple and easy. It's also include language and culture. Malay and Indonesian are different things culturally. I know you think Indonesian and Malay are similar on words and grammar but as a linguistics, they are different. It's same like American English and British English are similar but they are different. So, this should easy to say and nothing difficult. You cannot saying Bahasa because it's confusing. And even, someone had saying that Bahasa is Indonesian and Malay combination, however they are different based cultural and linguistics. They always different things so that you cannot saying...

On November 25th, 2020, I had been reading a lot of news about the Education Ministry has plans to reopen school and college in January 2021. They tell will make rules to make sure to protect them although we still the middle of the pandemic and Indonesia is in the highest Covid-19 cases in ASEAN. But, they saying that is only for new students, practicum, and thesis who are allowed to come to college. They also will apply the hybird learning system (online and offline systems).  Then, what is my reaction to that statement? I've just read the requirements of offline learning and I think they committed to protect all of people involved, including college leaders, lecturers, and students (new students, practicum, and thesis). I don't see how they do and how they keep a commitment. My hope is a free test everyday and makes a commitment to make sure to guarantee safety first. Actually, I'm happy with this but I have people who work in the hospital for months and they never retur...