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I have been learning English since my freshman to pursue my dream. But, I feel a little setback after failing the English test. I just feel wasted. Useless. So, I don't think what for when I still talk in English. And, also, being a Deaf person, it doesn't easy to have a privilege. My life is useless and I have lost my money and also my time. Just asking myself, what for. What for I still learn, write, read, and talk in English all day and all my life. My life sucks. I have nothing here and at least my future plans. I just don't know why. 

I just hope my life is better and being alone. I don't want to live with the closest people. I just need to be alone and do what I want to.  Writing a book and being unemployed. That's my life that has been created. As it is should be. I hate what is a dream. It sucks and is unreal. Useless. 

I won't talk about it anymore. I am considering blocking my account and blogging. I think it should be done it. I just want to be alone and spend my life. That's it. 

Good bye, my sucks dream! My life is just useless and sucks.

Thanks, everyone!

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